mask of eternity

when you think back and focus on something real hard, you'll get somewhere.

i tried reflecting back on my childhood once more. y' know, trying to resurface some of those deep, buried memories. i was actually looking for something in particular, so i set a specific timeframe to look for in my unretentive memory. i was hoping that i'd come up with good ones.

i never did.

but i did come across something worthwhile. something worth the time it took for me to gaze at the clouds, and fall into a semiconscious state of stupor for like, ten minutes, maybe.

life's mysteries.

you see, when you get older, or mature, you begin to think less of unnecessary thoughts. your creativity is dulled, and you lose your imagination. well, half of it.

thing is, we tend to think less about mysteries, and fantasies, and other things we used to imagine or even dream about, when we were still young.

"growing older, makes it more difficult for us to think about such things..", that's what my brother told me years ago.

we become institutionalized, and we amass this gloom that hinders all thoughts, except for those intertwined with the real world.

so i came up with this vague memory of me, when i was still too young to deal with real-world issues, looking at the clouds, like what i am doing in this present day, thinking about the mysteries of the universe, or uh, multiverse.

will my lifespan reach the point where we humans get to discover the secrets of the universe?

will this race ever get to unveil everything?

will we ever discover everything else that needs be?

time is gold, they say.

yes, time, is precious.

soon, age will be catching up with us. it's inevitable.

i answered these questions long time ago, the moment i abandoned my fantasies.

i grew up.

never found time to go back.

i guess i'll never uncover the mysteries i was trying to discover when i was still young.

i guess i'll never unveil the secrets beneath the ever enclouding mask of eternity.